cash - I appreciate your words because all of those emotions and more are swirling around me since that game ended. When it was over, I just shut off my soundbar and tv and walked away. I never once got angry or swore. During the game, I never got overly excited or cheering, I was like a rock, I was just there in the moment watching time go by or something. It was strange because I do cheer and mother f players or yell out get his ass, he's wide open throw it to him etc. I'm a fun kind of person to watch games with but I wasn't that person during the game yesterday.
I clapped once when Dallas got a passing TD but then it was over turned by a holding call. I did say something out loud when they tied it to force overtime but other than these two moments I didn't do anything else.
Perhaps because I was home alone on Thanksgiving, perhaps because I was confident Dallas would win. I have no idea.
I'm numb today because I know what was in front of me and I was set up beautifully.
I think the disappointment of losing out of William Hill by 1 game lingers and now add this on top of it and it's a bad mixture of raw emotions. Unless you've been in this spot, you really don't know how it feels. There's no real way to describe it to be honest but it's not a good feeling at all.
Don't get me wrong, the money would've been great, but to me at this point, I feel I've let people down. I feel I've let the forum members down. I've always said I didn't want to be the biggest forum because of all the problems and idiots that come with it, but deep down I wanted the site to get some recognition, get some new members, get people posting, make people proud to be here. There's no bigger light to shine than say that the winner came from here and more importantly me as the owner. I guess it would feel like I legitimized everything I've been trying to bring to the members and public for nearly 25 years.
This stings more than people will ever know and while it's true, I could've escaped yesterday to only lose this Sunday or some other day in the season, I truly don't believe that would've happened. I don't say that as being cocky or arrogant, I just know the way I planned this out starting two months before the season and how I adapted and made moves that others didn't make. I had all six teams available for Thanksgiving, I don't think many others if anyone else did. I had a big majority of top tier teams left to use and I avoided some of the biggest beats up until the one that ended mattering the most.
Looking back would I change the pick, hindsight is a funny thing but the answer remains no. They could go play that game 99 more times and I can't see the outcome coming out to the Raiders the vast majority of the times.
Raiderguy and parlaypaulie - thanks for being a part of this ride. 28 accepted penalties in a highlighted holiday game is over the top. No other game this year has come close to that and won't for the rest of the season. I appreciate your comments and support.
If I missed anyone, it's not intentional, I appreciate all of you and your efforts here in the forum.
Continued success to everyone. | 
